@samantha.busch
Samantha BuschThis trip to Idaho gave us exactly what we needed. A chance to slow down, breathe, and be surrounded by amazing friends who wrapped their arms around us. But grief is strange and I constantly feel like I’m living in two worlds at once. There were so many moments on this trip when I found myself genuinely smiling as I watched the kids fish, swim, explore, and simply be kids in the middle of God’s beautiful creation. But behind every smile was the same thought… “Kyle would have loved this.” “I wish he were here to see this.” I’m learning that two things can be true at the same time. You can thank God for the beauty and joy in front of you while still asking Him why you have to walk through this. You can be cheering your kids on while at the very same time your heart is quietly shattering because someone who should be standing beside you isn’t. I can’t stop thinking that we should be making these memories with you, not learning how to make them without you. Heartbreak and joy no longer exist separately. They simply live side by side in every moment.
On the profile · Jul 7, 2026