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@itsjisukim

Jisu Kim

It feels a bit vulnerable to share my sober journey, but I decided to stop drinking on Jan 1 after I woke up hungover and realized I was using alcohol to avoid my pain, anxiety, and any other negative emotions that I didn’t want to feel. My excuse was that I only drank socially, but at one point was consuming 8+ drinks every weekend. It was no longer just for social reasons, but a form of escape. I needed a drink at social gatherings to relax. I revolved all my activities and sense of fun around alcohol. It became so engrained in my life. But I told myself I didn’t have a drinking problem because I never drank alone, so why should I stop? But deep inside I knew that drinking wasnt the deeper issue - it was the things I did and said when I was drunk that was the problem. It was the feeling that I didn’t know who I was without alcohol or what I would even do in my free time if it didn’t involved it. At the beginning of 2026, I made a commitment to get into the best shape of my life and drinking away all my calories no longer fit into the equation. There have been so many moments where I wanted to cave in and drink again, but it’s in the deeply uncomfortable moments of loneliness, sadness, grief, anxiety, and unhappiness that I’ve had to sit with my emotions for the first time in a while without numbing it. Instead of chasing the buzz, I’ve had to seek God and draw closer to Him and my relationship with Him has become so more deeper because of it. It’s completely changed my lifestyle, my values, my free time and how I interact with others. Becoming sober has been one of the hardest but most rewarding journeys this year. I feel like I no longer need to run away from myself and can for once in my life sit with the uncomfortable emotions without trying to numb it. I’ve had to reconcile ALOT of feelings that have surfaced now that I don’t have distractions, and it’s truly been so healing to become more emotionally aware and regulated. I don’t know how long I’ll continue, if this will be a forever thing, but I do know that this is the journey I’m on now and I feel it to be the right thing 🤍 #soberjourney #soberliving #sobercurious

On the profile · Jul 28, 2026