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*PLEASE READ* This message was being banged over my head since Sunday morning when I went back to church for the first time after an extremely hurtful and terrifying church experience (story time?). The night before, I saw a post about “sometimes you’ll get a message that is so specific, so clear, it can only be from God.” That morning, I was on my knees, bowed with my head to the ground, praying for relief from the pain & impatience I was feeling- Many people have chosen to believe lies about me, a lot of them, for a very long time. Not many people can understand the long-standing pain and trauma of slander, especially public slander. I’ve been mocked and gaslighted to the point of having a very public breakdown, which led to more mocking and more public humiliation. It’s my own trauma to work through. So I’m bowed before God, praying for the 1000th time that the truth will be revealed, that the lies will be exposed as lies, that I will be restored NOW, begging God to move swiftly on my behalf (if you’ve read psalms, you get it). At this point I’ve been crying for a week straight with intrusive, OCD thoughts about losing my loved ones in a tragedy & being harmed… something I haven’t dealt with in quite a while. Darkness and negativity, DEMONIC ACTIVITY was plaguing me (because I was allowing it to, inviting it in by engaging in sinful behavior, INCLUDING celebrity gossip, something I personally should know better as someone on the receiving end). So we go to church for the first time, and I just prayed for God to answer me CLEARLY beyond deniability, and one of the first things out of this pastor’s mouth was “sometimes we pray for something so hard but it feels like the prayer isn’t being answered as quickly as we hoped.” Instantly I knew I was in for an emotional service. He starts preaching about how we have to continue our good works EVEN THROUGH SLANDER knowing that we have the approval of *God* whether or not we have the approval of *people.* He reminded us that we don’t want to fit in with a world that we were saved from. That we sometimes want what we had BEFORE Jesus saved us, but we have to grieve it and be thankful for the NEW life we were given… and to ALWAYS remember, that no matter what, *God loves us.* He spoke life into us, reminding us that our hope is in Jesus, that this life is VAPOR, and that we have *heaven* to look forward to; the realm where our body dies, our soul lives on, and there are no tears and no pain. Then, yesterday, I get a phone call from an organization I donated to just to say thanks… I know the person in passing, but we’ve never spoken on the phone or had any lengthy conversation. On the call, she randomly says off the top with no context of what I’m wrestling with: “We’re all gifted by God in some way… but every once in a while, someone is given a special gift. You were given a gift of talent and creativity… but more importantly, you were given the gift of influence. You have a powerful, recognizable voice… and you have the heavy responsibility to use it.” This was as I was getting ready to record my testimony, finally. And then I went to bed and had this vivid, direct, beautiful dream that validated and affirmed everything God was speaking to me through scripture, and through his other children (my pastor, the woman who called me). I wanted to share this because I want to encourage you- God is listening, God is responding. You’re not crazy. It’s not coincidence. God is speaking. Pray for the wisdom and discernment to hear HIS words and to reject the rest. God bless you all, Jesus LOVES you. #spirituality #christiantiktok #jesusismysavior

On the profile · Jan 20, 2026